Turns out a lot of people want to see her…
so when I called to make an appointment they were GLAD to schedule me for January 2019. It was currently late Spring, 2018. They told me I could see one of her PA’s who are all directly under her and consult with her on every patient they have. You guys I was so so desperate and I knew God had led me here so he would MAKE a way. I agreed to see her and was scheduled for the beginning of July. They also had told me to call and if they had any cancellations they would try to get me in earlier. So that is exactly what I did. I called one day and they said oh, actually you can come in on Wednesday morning at 8:30. The only problem with that was I couldn’t drop my son off at school until 8:30. I called to let them know that I would unfortunately not be able to do that because he had a school assembly that day I had promised him I would be at and on top of the fact that I couldn’t even drop him off until that appointment time. Once again, God made a way. The receptionist said well I don’t know if you would be able to do this or not but we actually had a cancellation this morning if you could come in today? YOU BETCHA! So I got in there, had a very long talk with my doctor and did all sorts of blood work.
The day it was time to come back and have my results and try to diagnose me I had scheduled some things for later in the day. I knew this appointment would require sufficient time and I didn’t want to be rushed or late. I decided to call and see if they happened to have any openings earlier in the day and she informed me they didn’t.
No big deal, I didn’t expect to be able to change it but just decided to try. So I get to the gym and not even 10 minutes into my work out they called me back and said “Oh, actually we had an opening come available if you can be here by 9.” YOU BETCHA! So I hurried my butt up in the shower and got there. I looked pretty rough but who cares, they are doctors right? I’m sure they have seen worse. And at least I didn’t stink! I checked in at the front desk when they let me know that I would not be seeing my usual doctor, Audra Ball. I would in fact be seeing Dr. Audra Fox. This may mean nothing to you but it meant EVERYTHING to me. Remember the January 2019 appointment I turned down with the specific Dr. I had been referred to? That was her.
God had made a way where it had been impossible for me to get in to the doctor I believe he wanted me to get to.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my Dr. Audra Ball but this was a DIVINE appointment. There was no way in the world all of this had happened by coincidence. This doctor was going to be the one to evaluate my results and talk it all out with me.
After discussing my results and our conversation about my lifestyle and symptoms she decided that I definitely have this gene mutation called MTHFR.
What the heck is that?
I’ll explain in the next blog, so be sure to subscribe for the final piece of the puzzle!
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So to continue on in this super frustrating journey…
We found out that not only do I have that gene mutation but both of them. All that really means is I have low homocysteine in my blood and very low levels of folate. Not so terrible considering to keep the symptoms low all I have to do is take a complex b-12 folate supplement. So, that’s it? All of these years and symptoms can be managed with something as simple as a supplement? I still take my thyroid medication but all of the anxiety and depression and mood swings are all better. I would say they are gone but I would be lying. I’m a woman. I get worried, I get sad and emotional, and I can’t always decide exactly how I feel. But, that’s NORMAL. I didn’t feel like I was a bipolar psychopath anymore and it was awesome!
One thing we couldn’t figure out though was my menstrual cycle and my levels of estrogen and progesterone, which contributes as all women know to the mood swings. We do know that MTHFR doesn’t allow toxins to exit your liver (hello liver cleanse supplements) and that could contribute to why my body stopped producing it but we don’t really know for sure. So, I am basically experiencing menopause at 26 years old because of the lack of estrogen and progesterone being made in my body. COOL BRO. That’s exactly what I wanted to hear. But it did make sense. It makes sense as to why I am constantly hot and sweat easily. It makes sense why I get migraines. It makes sense why I have no menstrual cycle. Not being able to sleep and being forgetful. While it was nice to finally have answers about WHAT was wrong… It was super annoying not knowing WHY. It is still super annoying not knowing why and also not knowing what in the world to do to FIX it. I had never dreamed in a million years that I would ever be praying to have a monthly period. But here I am, 26 years old, wondering when it will ever come back. So far we have tried months of cycling progesterone and estrogen and different supplements that are supposed to help women with this and once again we are finding no answers.
I will be quite honest. I want to have more children. I am frustrated. I am frustrated because at one point it was so simple for me to get pregnant. I literally was not even trying. Although I wasn’t trying not to get pregnant either. Remember I was 18 and right out of high school in an abusive relationship. But now that I am happily married and actually want to start a family in the RIGHT god-honoring way, it seems that it is going to be such a battle. It seems as if it could be impossible. And even if it is impossible it LOOKS like it is going to be an all out war. My doctor gave me a referral to an infertility specialist and even that is looking very grim. It’s $250 without insurance just to SEE the doctor for your first appointment. And with the medi-share that I use, they only cover infertility if it is deemed medically necessary. GOOD NEWS! Because I have no menstrual cycle, I can qualify. Bad news? The doctor I was referred to is not a provider with medi-share.
So that leaves me once again waiting for answers. It leaves me with several roads and a lot of questions. It leaves me frustrated. It leaves me vulnerable.
But If one thing has proven true in my life so far and in this health journey it is that God knows the answers and He will lead me to them as I keep seeking him. I may not get the answer when I want it or get the answer I expect or believe is best but I will get the RIGHT answer at the RIGHT time.
For now I must keep asking for him to guide me into HIS will and HIS best for my health and for the future of our family.
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What's Wrong With Me?
I’m not sure how many of you have had or do have any health issues. I am almost positive though that if you don’t currently have any, you will at some point. I don’t mean that to be negative but let’s face it, in todays society we aren’t the best stewards of our temple. We fill our days with errands and activities and work and leave hardly any time for rest and reset. We tend to not exercise much and some of us don’t exercise at all. We eat fast food and ingest all kinds of chemicals and pesticides and for the most part it’s simply because we haven’t taken the time to make it a priority.
But what about the people who have health issues and are trying everything in their power to BEAT them? What about the ones like me, who have exhausted what seems to be every single option to find an answer? And even once we find an answer, we continually have to fight against whatever the answer is. What about those of us who are T I R E D ?
I’m going to get right down to it. When I was 17 I was diagnosed with hypo-thyroid disease which is a fancy term for JACKED UP HORMONES. I fully believe this developed out of undiagnosed adrenal fatigue (another fancy term for TOO MUCH STRESS). I was in a very mentally abusive and exhausting relationship at the time which sent me into full out anxiety mode. Getting pregnant at 18 right out of high school, still dealing with the relationship, and now taking on adulthood. Yeah, it didn’t really help my stress levels. Continue on in the next years to come it was just constant anxiety and stress and depression as I dealt with what was now my life. I started battling it more and more yet my thyroid levels were all “normal”. I felt ANYTHING and EVERYTHING besides normal. Not to mention that emotionally my world was very very dark.
I had horrible acne on top of that. I couldn’t seem to lose weight, and then I lost too much. My cycle was extremely irregular and then completely non-existent. I would have fits of rage and then deep depression. I couldn’t sleep at night. I mean I REALLY couldn’t sleep. I would wake up after sleeping for maybe 2-3 hours. This happened 5-6 nights out of the week. I developed migraines which literally could put me on the floor and unable to speak because of how painful they are. I would get bruises out of nowhere. I mean just really odd stuff. I can’t begin to even tell you how much money I have spent going to doctors and trying different things to figure out what the heck was wrong with me.
We tried Benadryl to try and help me sleep, with no luck. Ambien was next but it didn’t help at all either and the side effects of it were not worth the risk. I paid around $450 a month to get rid of my acne. Thank you Acutane and Dr. Brazeal! At least that worked for me. I’ve tried tons of diets and workout programs some worked and some didn’t. When it came to my anxiety and depression we mostly have relied on neurotherapy which seemed to help a little but not a lasting difference. CBD didn’t make a difference for me either. No Tylenol or ibuprofen ever helped my migraines. We finally found imitrex and that will make them better for a while but I am still having them.
I finally decided to go to the one place I knew I would find answers. Facebook. Let’s be honest, we have all done it! It was my last resort but I just could NOT handle the depression anymore. It was beginning to take over my life. I posted on my timeline something along the lines of “Here is everything that’s wrong with me, here’s what I’ve tried, WHERE DO I GO AND WHAT DO I DO? SOS, SEND HELP PLZZZZ.”.
When you post things like this people LOVE it because they get to tell you everything they know and it makes them feel smart. Trust me I know, I do it too. So I of course had about 600 comments (exaggeration) in a matter of 30 minutes. In the time I posted it I also felt like I was supposed to text one of my clients wives who I knew was very into natural medicine and extremely health conscience. I told her kind of what was going on and what she would recommend. She immediately responded with her Doctors name and some good advice and I told her I would check into it later when I got off work.
I looked her up and I was AMAZED. She had referred me to the same doctor and doctors office that so many people on my facebook had mentioned. I don’t take things like this as a coincidence. I was so sick and tired of trying new doctors and new medicine and never getting any answers. I had prayed to God and told him please please just send me where I need to go. Not knowing why I felt like I shouldmessage her but doing it anyways ended up giving me the confirmation I needed to have peace about going to this doctor’s office and investing the time and money to find an answer.
I took that was Gods way of saying “I have ALL of these people telling you where to go, but I know where your heart is right now so I am going to give you an even greater confirmation through her…
All you have to do is ask.”
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